Slapping, etc...

I must say I never expected 28% of the women who voted would be able to cum ten times or more... that really is quite surprising. I guess 39 people isn't really enough of a poll to be representative of the world as a whole though, especially as someone who's likely to be reading a blog like this is probably a lot more sexually adventurous and may just be the sort of person who would go out of their way to train themselves to be multi-orgasmic. I would be interested to know how many of you had to learn and how many are just wired up to cum easy...

So, anyway, you may remember that I mentioned some light slapping yesterday. Well Mistress R was a little bemused by it I'm sure, but I loved it. One of the reasons that I loved it was because as I have said before I had a back operation that left me with some nerve damage (particularly in my right foot, down my right leg and my groin area) this is seemingly permanent and when I am tired it makes it worse and I feel kind of numb. I can still feel, but it's a little 'removed' (as you can imagine this does not help trying to stay hard very much!) and the great thing about having my cock slapped is that it cuts through the numbness, and of course I like it because it feels submissive too... and because I just like seeing Mistress R do it, it's hot!
Like I mentioned yesterday, I loved it when she was using her foot to push on my balls. I agree totally with Goodhubby on this, that feet are more difficult to control, more clumsy and more likely to create a stronger pressure than intended. While I'm not sure I'd like to have my balls squeezed as hard as he does (basically as hard as his wife can manage!) I would love Mistress to be a little less... gentle, sometimes.

Speaking of Goodhubby, if you haven't been following his Orgasm Record Attempt, he managed to cum nine times yesterday. Which is quite impressive to say the least. That's two more than I've had in 3.5 months... wonder how he's feeling this morning?

My treat...

Mistress R has just given me a treat for my 3lb weight loss, and a lovely treat it was too. She started off with some lovely stroking and sucking, and then surprised me by pulling her knickers off and straddling me, pushing down on my cock until I was fully inside her, that felt so wonderful. After about a minute of riding my cock I was starting to get a little bit close, but I got it under control and enjoyed a few minutes of lovely penetration...
She then climbed off and lay down beside me saying, "We don't want it to go too far do we?" Then she stroked me a little more and then gave my cock a few little slaps and then a couple a little harder (but still pretty light really) which made my cock throb for attention.... and then it was over. Hopefully Mistress R will want some attention tomorrow because I am already aching to go down on her again, I can't believe it was only last night, it seems ages ago.
Oh yes, I nearly forgot, Mistress R looked very pleased when she asked if I had managed to keep my hands off my cock this week and I was able to confirm that I had. But I'm sure that's going to get harder over the next week or two...

Weigh day...

Well, last night was great. I got to go down on Mistress R and make her cum and before that I was given some brief but lovely teasing with Mistress R's beautiful feet. One thing I love about when she teases me with her feet is that it tends to be more intense because it's more difficult to be gentle, so when she was using her feet to press on my balls that was rather nice!
The scales showed a three pound loss this morning so that means I am due a treat anytime soon... wonder what it will be?

Teased again...

So last night Mistress R gave me the proper teasing she promised me, with lots of lovely stroking and sucking (and a little gentle biting), but no orgasm (of course). I noticed that my cock was hardest right after she was touching my balls, actually as I was laying there I was hoping she would go much harder on them, maybe even give them a few slaps (this is something I've been thinking about a lot lately)... but I didn't ask, which I could have, sigh... still it was lovely to be teased, although unfortunately I was a little too tired to really fully appreciate it properly (and consequently not as ball-achingly cranked as I was the night before). Still that was absolutely no reflection on my wonderful Mistress, just real life  getting in the way, and tired as I was it was still extremely enjoyable...

Going back to 'normal'...

You know, sometimes I write this stuff, particularly the difficult stuff about the mechanics of all this, and I worry about what Mistress R is going to think when she reads it. Like yesterday for example, that was all pretty heavy going, and not at all easy to write and self-examine. But Mistress R was really cool and gave me a big kiss after she'd read it, so it can't have been that bad. She doesn't venture too many opinions about specifics and rarely answers any questions I pose in my posts, so I'm not really any the wiser regarding her feelings about penetration than I was yesterday (and maybe that's for the best, especially if one day we go back to what most people would consider a 'normal' sex life!), but at least we've somehow worked out that we are both happy with the way things are and that really is all that matters.

It had never really occurred to me before just then to think about the prospect of going back to 'normal'. I'm not really sure how I feel about it... I mean I'm not for a moment saying this is it now, we are never going back to how it was, and Mistress R did bring up at one point about the idea of chastity-holidays, or breaks between periods of chastity, but as of yet nothing more has been mentioned. But we are both adults who entered into this freely and we are both at liberty to say if we are unhappy with how it is going (sorry if that shatters anyone's fantasies).
Right now of course I have no intention of suggesting anything of the kind, but I have no idea how I will feel in a year, or two, or five! Maybe we will stick with this indefinitely, maybe Mistress will decide to have some breaks, maybe not. Maybe she might be the one who decides she wants to go back to 'normal', though I don't see why she would... as it is she gets whatever she wants, whenever she wants, plus a constantly horny husband who wants nothing more than to make her happy. But who knows, maybe she'll get bored of teasing me, in which case I might be the one who calls a halt (I don't mind not being allowed to touch as long as there still some touching going on!).
All I can say with any degree of certainty is that right now (and for the foreseeable future) I am fully prepared to go along with whatever Mistress R wants, within the boundaries of what we both feel is acceptable and have already agreed between ourselves. Which of course means that Mistress decides when my cock gets touched and teased, how long I have to wait to cum and whether I have to swallow my cum when I am allowed to ejaculate.
Of course Mistress R is under no obligation to make me wait, indeed she could decide to test my assertion that I could cum four times in a day if she wanted to. But then again, she could also make me wait four months to make up for it afterwards if she wanted to (and she might make me swallow all four loads!). So, like I said, Mistress has absolute flexibility of control and can have anything she could have had before in our vanilla life, which seems to me to be the best possible way to ensure the long term prospects of my male chastity adventure!

Ten maybe fifteen seconds...

Last night when we got into bed, Mistress R rather unexpectedly placed her hand against my cock for ten maybe fifteen seconds. She didn't move it or stroke it or anything she just held it gently and then let go just as it was getting really, really hard. So hard in fact that it felt like it was about to burst. She must have realised from my breathing how hard I was because she very gently stroked it for about thirty seconds or so before kissing me goodnight, but not before telling me that tomorrow (which is now tonight) she intends to give me a proper teasing. What amazed me was how hard I got just from that touch, and I can only put it down to the fact that I am eleven days in and still haven't touched my cock myself, thus making the slightest touch from her that much more intense. Of course, once she had turned over to go to sleep I was left rock hard and had to put my hands outside the sheets to make sure I didn't do anything I shouldn't. So, as you can imagine, I am more than a little impatient to get teased tonight!
I just love the thought that with barely any effort at all on her part Mistress R could leave me so hard and desperate, so I will definitely, definitely be sticking to the no touching rule in future, and I hope, now that she knows the power she has (and how little effort is required), she will leave me like that a lot more often!

Following up on yesterday's post...

Firstly, thanks to those of you who commented, and to GoodHubby for the inspiration.
I printed my post out for Mistress R last night, and she was concerned that I was 'worried' about it. Which I'm not (much), but anyway...
She pointed out that one of the reasons was that before we started the chastity thing my cock wasn't all that reliable (this is true, I have some nerve damage from an operation and I'm also well overweight), although a cock ring is quite effective in sorting that out*. If I am on top I also tend to get cramp in my legs, although not always and a few weeks ago we did this for the first time in ages and it was wonderful, even though I had to go slow or risk pushing myself over the edge. I love her to be on top, not least because I love to look up at her, but also because I don't get any cramp and I don't have to worry about coming so much. And obviously it feels so much more submissive to be on the bottom (plus if she does decide to let me cum inside her, she can easily move up and have me lick her clean).
But, most importantly of all, Mistress agrees that she has the power and if she wanted more penetration she would ask for it. So it seems the answer is that Mistress is getting all the penetration she requires, and if that is the case then I am more than happy with the way things are.
Unlike some men, I have never felt any given 'right' to penetrate my wife. I know I am a bit 'over-sensitive' (probably even unnecessarily so a lot of the time) to how Mistress R is feeling and the slightest bit of discomfort on her part (even just a slightly pained look on her face) is enough to put me off, because I can't stand the thought of hurting her (and even more so since a couple of months back in our Femdom session, she was getting a bit worked up with a dildo, trying to shove it into my arse, and she completely misjudged it and aimed about an inch too high and I must say it fucking hurt!).
Truth be told, I am generally quite happy to be teased manually and to be allowed inside her only when she wants it, because while I do love to be inside her, it's more important to me that she is in control, and like I said, being inside her is so much better when I know she really wants me there.** Besides, as the nerve damage means that I am sometimes much less sensitive than I might otherwise be, on the verge of numbness at times, fingers are often better for me as they can grip harder, scratch, etc... plus when Mistress R's wonderful tongue is teasing my cock it's really quite difficult to feel hard-done-by!

*One wonderful side-effect of 'male-chastity' is how hard I get (and stay) now, a huge improvement.

** I do remember a time, not too many years ago, when Mistress R told me that penetration was not that important to her because it doesn't make her cum and was something she did 'for me'. I don't exactly remember why she said that, and it is possible that it was said when I was stressing about not being able to perform as well as I would have liked for her, so maybe it was meant as a kindness... but even so, the fact that she was so keen to take control of my being allowed inside her and the fact that it has diminished significantly since leads me to conclude that there perhaps was at least some truth in it.
And actually, if that is the case, then it makes being allowed inside her even more special...

A good comment deserves a good answer...

Admittedly, I have not yet finished your archives, but I was wondering about the limited intercourse. Obviously, preferences vary greatly. In this case, though, does Mistress R prefer other activities to intercourse? Do you need to frequently use implements, for her, to make up for the lack of penetration? Or is she content to go without the penetration and enjoy other stimulation?

By goodhubby on Much as expected... at 16:39

Well, I started to answer this question in the comment box but then decided that it would actually make an excellent post, so here I am when I really should be writing my book! Actually it's probably as well that I did because, on second reading I notice that Goodhubby's question is not as well balanced as I thought... nevertheless I shall continue...

Hmm, where to begin. Well, the short answer to the question is simply that for the most part Mistress R is content to go without penetration and enjoy other stimulation. Which is not to say that she doesn't enjoy penetration sometimes, after all the G-Spot massager kindly provided by Eden Fantasys did the trick nicely (although it was only playing a supporting role to my tongue) and Mistress R loves her glass dildo (though as far as I know it only comes out of the packet once a month during our Femdom session).

The truth is I do not really know as we have never seriously discussed this. I cannot actually remember whether it (the no asking rule) was totally her idea or whether it was something that I asked and she decided on, but I do remember her being very keen on the idea. With that in mind, I can only surmise that Mistress R is entirely satisfied with the limited amount of penetration she receives, since she is the one with the power to have it whenever she wants it, I mean it's not like I would turn the opportunity down, is it?

As for me, well since you asked (!) I must confess that when I agreed to this rule I didn't anticipate quite how dramatic the change would be. But, though it confuses me greatly, I am not unhappy with the way it has turned out. Of course I love being inside her, but I also love to long for it... and I am a tremendously 'oral' person, I love to use my tongue on my Mistress's pussy (and ass) and I derive a huge amount of pleasure from doing that and from bringing Mistress to climax. 

I think, maybe, as you get older you become less... bothered about what you think you should be doing and more bothered about doing what you actually like. It's not uncommon for women to be ambivalent about penetration or to require a lot less of it than men, and the truth is I would rather be allowed inside Mistress once a month when she really wants it, than twice a week as an obligation. I think what Mistress has done is take control of what she wants, and that's what this is supposed to be about isn't it?

At the same time I feel that everything that is said about orgasm denial can be equally applied to the sensation of penetration. I was married at 23 and for 18 years I never went more than a week or so (give or take a couple of periods of illness) without it, but being made to wait weeks for it (especially when there's no reason for it other than that your Mistress gets to decide) teaches you to appreciate it when it happens, just like chastity teaches you to appreciate your orgasms. I can't even begin to tell you how good it feels to be inside your wife when you've waited a month for it...

Of course, being a bloke, you can't help but wonder why it is that your wife can seemingly exist for weeks at a time without wanting to ride that throbbing tower of manly gristle, and it's all too easy for those thoughts to turn to self-criticism. Surely, if only I had another couple of inches then she wouldn't be able to resist it, would she? 

Maybe, maybe not. I'm sticking with not, for the good of my sanity. Truth is for all the porn on the internet I know I am practically bang on Mr Average, and besides, you've got what you've got, so where's the use in thinking like that? And more to the point, Mistress R actually purchased a larger glass dildo a while back, and you know what, it really wasn't that comfortable and I don't think she's even tried it again. Moreover, the one she loves is, well about the size of my cock I should say (well a little bit longer, I suppose), now maybe if I can work out how to attach some 'ridges' to my cock we might be in business!

Much as expected...

Four teasing sessions over the last three days meant I woke up with a very hard cock this morning... but once again I managed to keep my hands off it (just). It's getting harder though, it's definitely getting harder.
Carrot and stick. Remember the carrot and stick. Touching means the paddle, not touching means Mistress R's wonderful teasing (perhaps) or some other lovely treat (maybe some ass or foot worship), that's what I've got to focus on. As much as I love touching my cock, I know it's never as good as when Mistress touches it... and I don't want to feel that bloody paddle again, it stung quite enough last time!

Looking at Mistress and I's relative orgasm counts, I was just wondering how they will stack up come Christmas time... Mistress could be pushing 100, while I'll be (more than) lucky to break 20! Assuming everything continues as it is now, of course...

One of the most frustrating things about all this is not being able to ask to be allowed inside Mistress R's wonderful pussy. This was a rule that Mistress made right at the start of our chastity adventure, in fact I can still remember the moment she said it, we were walking in a nearby field, discussing whether or not I should be allowed to beg to cum (even though it was pretty obvious that I didn't really want to...) when she added that rule as well. So that's three months since I've been allowed even to ask to be inside her...
I love that she has that control, that she only grants me that absolute pleasure when (and for how long) it suits her, my only worry is that because I can't ask she might get the impression I'm not bothered. Which is silly really, because of course she knows that I want to be inside her... and as long as she does know that, I am more than happy for her to decide. And because it only seems to happen once or twice a month, it really does feel like she is giving me a very special gift indeed...

What a weekend...

Teasing for me and an orgasm for Mistress R on Friday, super-hot double teasing for me yesterday and more teasing and another orgasm for Mistress R today! It's funny, I think the best side-effect of not eating so much and getting plenty of exercise, is that we seem to be having more 'sex'. Which is awesome!
I can't quite believe Mistress R is about to hit 30 orgasms while I am still only on 7, and Mistress R could easily hit 35 before I hit 8 (which would put her on 5/1), that is truly amazing... and more than I could ever have hoped for. This really is working out great!

My reward...

Those of you who read the comments under my last post will know that Mistress R told me that I would be rewarded with teasing. Well, this afternoon Mistress R did indeed give me some lovely teasing, first sucking and stroking my cock beautifully and then using her feet to rub it and then making me worship her feet. She finished off with another short bout of sucking and stroking and then said, 'That's all for now...'. She then added that I might get some more later, but it depends...
Well, I rather obviously wanted to know 'on what, it would depend', so I asked her.
Her response was, 'On how I feel, obviously...'.
So fingers crossed there might be more to come!
This is truly the best diet ever!!!

Good news and good news...

First off, this morning was my second weigh in which resulted in a 2lb loss, taking me down to 17St 8lbs. Still too much, but it's going in the right direction.

Secondly last night I was allowed to go down on Mistress R again, which is very unusual on a Friday actually (and takes her back up to the 4/1 ratio). We retired to bed about 10:30pm and started cuddling and kissing, I began teasing Mistress by stroking the insides of her legs and around her pussy and she quickly grabbed my cock and got it nice and hard and me quite worked up, then she said, 'Go down on me now' (I loved that she didn't say 'please'... it's so much hotter this way). I gladly complied, even though I was slightly reluctant to remove my cock from her hand, and it was wonderful. Mistress was so 'creamy' and smelt and tasted delicious and she came nice and hard too!
Afterwards my cock was rock hard once more and I was debating whether to use my first 'chance' or not. I decided against it and as it happens as I was debating this in my mind it kind of decided for itself and started to soften, which made getting to sleep a little easier of course, hahaha.

Well, Mistress R is at the pedicurist right now and she's promised me a treat for my weight loss, can't wait! I've just realised that I didn't really get my weight loss specific treat last week because it was our Femdom session, what a swizz! Still I can't complain really can I?

How far is too far...

Don't worry, I'm not about to tread on anyone's toes here, this post is just about my own personal limits and what I think is reasonable and what is not. If you disagree that's fine, I make no judgements about your personal opinions and levels of kink, however this for me, is one example of going too far...

You know, back in the day I remember my old Dad saying to me, "Son," he said. "When your bollocks are by your knees, you've gone to far.. "
Okay, he didn't really say that. But that's a hell of a picture isn't it? Fucking hell. I mean, I'm all for ball stretching (especially if like me you are what my doctor described as a 'very high rider'), maybe a couple of inches so that you can comfortably wear a chastity device, but that really is taking things too far. I'm not too keen on the piercing either, actually... but that's another debate.
So anyway, I was thinking about things I've done, things I haven't done, things I'd like to do, things I definitely don't want to do and things that confuse me because they turn me on even though I'm not sure why! Of course, when you think of things like that, you end up ranking your levels of perversion and someone else might look at that and say (for example) I can't believe you wouldn't wear women's pants but you would let your Mistress pee in your mouth!
Which is a perfectly reasonable argument, one is completely and utterly harmless, painless and really not that big a deal, whereas the other one is harmless, painless but, on the face of it, much more 'extreme' and possibly less 'pleasant' than might be imagined (I have no idea as I've never actually done either). And yet one of those things, to me, is well outside my comfort zone while the other is merely towards the edge of it.
I'm not entirely sure why that is though... on the face of it I think it's because I think sissification would alter how Mistress R views me outside of kink. So it's not that I find it particularly abhorrent in itself, but I worry that the knock on effects would be negative... on the other hand, I think the worst that indulging in watersports would lead to would be for Mistress to consider me a bit 'weird', which she probably does anyway, so no harm done then, hahaha.
At the same time, I have no massive burning to desire to do it, it's just... one of those things that is more about 'power' than the act itself, so it appeals to me as an act of 'submission' rather than anything else. However, I know Mistress R does not like the idea of watersports at all, so it's rather unlikely in any case.
Of course it's not lost on me that sissification is very much an act of submission too, but I think a lot of guys would share my views on this, and I think it stems from early 'programming' that men who dress in women's clothing are likely to be 'gay', whereas people who get off on being pissed on are just perverts, and most* heterosexual men would rather be considered 'perverted' than 'gay' (which is kind of ironic considering the things I posted the day before yesterday...).
Then there's the things that confuse the hell out of me. On the face of it, being kicked in the balls is definitely not cool, and yet, I have seen whole forums dedicated to it, and the thought of it does sometimes turn me on (in a Femdom setting). But there's degrees isn't there. I mean I would be quite happy for Mistress R to kick me gently (taps of the foot, in effect), but if she starts taking a run up, well that's time to call a halt to it I feel!
The same goes for paddling and the like. Mistress R has pretty much already found my limit for pain and yet many people, probably even many of you reading this, would regard my limit as pitifully low by their own standards. When I see bottoms that have been caned I wince, even though I know the person that has been on the receiving end has probably loved it, like they say, it's different strokes for different folks.
Perhaps looking in the other direction, many pain sluts and sissies would gasp in horror at the thought of being denied orgasm for extended periods? You can just imagine their voices 'How could you do that?', says the man with the raised welts across his backside, the crocodile clips hanging off his nipples and his make up smeared across his face where his Mistress has rode his tongue to orgasm...
So one man's meat really is another man's poison, and so we learn to tolerate other people's kinks, even if we know deep down that they are not for us. Isn't it a shame the world isn't run by 'perverts', everything would be so much easier!

* unverified of course, I have no way of knowing that this is true.

It's late...

Mistress R has gone to bed but I'm not really tired enough yet, even though I've done two lots of exercise today (Go, Me!)... not only that but I also spent a lovely hour in bed with Mistress earlier and licked her to another lovely climax (bringing her total to 27 since April 1st). Not only that, but I got a double dose of teasing... firstly when we were kissing when we first got into bed, Mistress was stroking my cock and then as I moved down her body she used her foot to tease my cock and balls until I moved fully between her legs. Then after I made her cum she surprised me by pulling the sheet back (I thought I'd had my treat for the day) and stroked and teased me wonderfully for several more exquisite minutes. It felt so, so good, and my cock was soooooo hard!
Mistress was also very pleased that I had managed not to touch my cock since Saturday, maybe that's why she gave me extra teasing (but most likely it was because she so pleased with how hard I'm trying with the weight loss thing). It was so much better than doing it myself, and that's what I have to remind myself. Not only does it feel better than me doing it, but because I haven't done it myself, it makes Mistress's touch feel even better. If you think about it, it's like being locked up, without being locked up. All you need is willpower!
Of course, now I'm awake, Mistress is asleep and the world wide web of filth is wide open to me. And of course I want to touch my cock, but I'm not going to, not even a little bit. Because next time Mistress touches me I want it to feel just as amazing as it did tonight, and I know that if I touch my cock myself it will detract from that, plus I want to be able to say to Mistress next time she asks that I have obeyed her wishes.
Moreover, I love the idea that ALL my sexual pleasure should come at the behest and whim of my Mistress. That is why I would love to be locked up in a chastity belt, so that Mistress R would know without question that every bit of sexual pleasure I get would come from her. It's easy for me to say that I have not touched my cock or made myself cum (and I have not lied once since we started this) but I would love for her to have that security, that absolute knowledge that I cannot have done either since she locked me up and that only she can release me and grant me satisfaction through teasing or release.
But that's not going to happen any time soon, so instead I am going to concentrate on behaving myself, knowing that when Mistress does decide to touch my cock again it will be enhanced greatly by my self-discipline and stoic adherence to Mistress's instructions.

International Femdom Day...

I have mentioned this before, but it was ages ago and I'm sure there's several new readers that have found my blog since then. July 24th is Femdom Day! So make sure you don't forget. I have already made plans for Mistress R, plans which were supposed to stay secret, but which I decided to tell her because Mistress R and surprises are not always happy bedfellows, which isn't to say that she knows 'everything', but she does know that we are going away for a night and where we are going.
Funnily enough this was something that I only discovered by accident. I was thinking that Mistress R should have a separate birthday from wife-R, and then I looked on the internet to see if there was some precedent for this and there it was... I think I mistakenly called it 'Mistress Day' previously, but it is actually Femdom Day. Which amounts to the same thing really, doesn't it?

Homophobia can be fun(ny)...

I have a friend who is a bit homophobic. He's not... I mean he wouldn't abuse anyone for being gay, indeed we both knew someone a long time ago who was gay and he was perfectly okay with him, but I know that in his head he finds it a bit disgusting. At the same time, I know he likes 'lesbian' porn, which I can't help feeling is a bit of a double standard.
He's what you'd probably call an 'Alpha' male, tall, fit, likes football, beer and definitely thinks women are 'inferior'. He's a nice bloke and we get on great, but if we hadn't been in a band together in our youth I can't see that we'd have much in common. But his 'homophobia' does make me laugh sometimes. Once we were playing a game of pool and he was talking about a threesome he'd nearly had when I completely innocently said 'I reckon two blokes and one woman would work better than two women and one man'. This did not find favour with my friend, at all. I think he was afraid that he might somehow unwittingly 'brush' against another mans cock and that would cause him to run screaming from the room, like a big girl.
Of course when I say he likes lesbian porn, predictably it's the 'Vivid girl' kind of lesbian porn, not the realistic kind... honestly he's like a walking cliche.
I don't know, I find as I get older I become more open-minded about things, particularly things to do with sex. When Tabor send me their catalogues (how the fuck do you get off those mailing lists, I never even bought anything!) I still can't help thinking that blokes with other blokes cocks in their mouths look 'odd', but then I'm not attracted to men. Which is why the whole cuckolding/domination thing is so confusing.
I'm pretty sure that if I was horny enough and in the right frame of mind and Mistress R ordered me to do it for her, I might suck another man's cock. But I'm in no doubt about my orientation, I like women. Any fantasies I may have about sucking cock or cleaning another man's cum out of my Mistress's pussy all revolve around my Mistress and obeying her. Take that out of the equation and it simply doesn't work anymore. I wouldn't even describe myself as bi-curious, because I have no desire to do any of these things outside of the scenario I described above. But equally, the idea doesn't disgust me, I'm just devoted to pussy, not cock.
In a way I would love to know what my friend would say if he knew what Mistress R and I get up to, but I'm sure it would fry his tiny mind and I can no more imagine him submitting to his wife sexually than driving a small pink car with the number plate 'FAG 1'.
I know he would find the idea of giving control of his orgasms to his wife completely ludicrous, but I bet if he did his wife would find him a lot more considerate and attentive (there's certainly plenty of scope for improvement there if I may say so!), but while ever he views women as 'inferior' there's no incentive for him to do so, is there. Which is his loss as far as I'm concerned, because I know that it has made me feel happier, closer and more devoted to Mistress R than I have ever have been.
My friend and his wife both earn a lot more than Mistress R or I, they have a big house, posh cars, they are both athletic and attractive, but I wouldn't swap with them for a moment. I know that what I have with Mistress R is something money simply can't buy and that many people would kill for, which is why I would never do anything to put it risk. Her contentedness is everything to me, and I'm very much looking forward to making her very content in about six hours time!

Still nothing...

That's a whole three days without touching my cock, do I get a medal? Fuck me it seems a lot longer than that already, hahaha. Still I did have some lovely teasing on Sunday and (fingers crossed) maybe some more tonight after I've made Mistress R cum again. I'm certainly looking forward to that a lot more than doing Mistress Motivator's exercise DVD. Still, the stupid scales revealed a pound on this morning, which I'm very annoyed about, although truth be told I did have to reset the scales to '0' and that always seems to end up making you weigh more, which I don't really understand, but there you are.
So, I guess it's got to be done, at least we have a decent fan to keep us cool. I have to say, I don't mind doing this too much, because it seems to fly by, but I can't say my fantasy of watching Mistress R exercising has really lived up to the Eric Prydz video I had in my head, mainly because I spend the entire time concentrating on trying to stay in time with the DVD, and it doesn't help that Mistress R doesn't so I get confused and end up following her instead...
Truth be told, I think it would be a lot more fun if I sat on the sofa and watched Mistress R do the routine naked, but I don't think there's much chance of that. Maybe when I'm thin and locked in the CB-3000 she might do it, just to watch me struggle... Mmmm, that would be a hell of an incentive to lose weight! Hehehehe.

Why this morning was SO good...

I don't know about anyone else, but when I'm finally allowed to cum, my body kind of wakes up to what it's been missing and thinks 'let's do that again', so strangely when I was being so wonderfully teased by Mistress R this morning I probably wanted to cum even more than I did yesterday, because that sensation of release was so fresh in my mind. Plus because it's only 'day one' your brain reasons 'well you might as well let me cum now, because we've hardly even started this period of chastity yet, so we won't even be messing it up, not like we will if you leave it a couple of days...', which is why of course we need someone else in control, or else chastity would become like a diet that will always start tomorrow...
I think that by teasing and denying me so soon after letting me cum, Mistress R has undoubtedly put me back on the right track of not expecting to cum again until she wants me too, and I do love that feeling of knowing that once again I am under her control. I just can't get over how amazing it felt this morning, her fingers teasing my cock head so perfectly and bringing me so close so quickly even after I'd cum yesterday... that really was out of this world.
Only thing was of course, Mistress R calling a halt to proceedings then getting up and leaving me alone in bed with a violently throbbing cock meant I really had to get up pronto, otherwise I would have undoubtedly incurred my first infraction and maybe even something worse (and I definitely don't want to make the acquaintance of the paddle again anytime soon, I can tell you!).

Lovely Sunday morning...

Mistress R and I were out late last night and so we've only just woken up. Mistress noticed my rock hard cock and decided to tease me a while, giving me some wonderful firm strokes and then teasing the head and underside of my cock with her fingers. I was most surprised how quickly she almost got me to the edge (especially after yesterday!) and doubly surprised that once again she stopped just before I was about to tell her I was getting close. She's obviously getting good at this!
Funny how I'm always a little nervous on Femdom session days, and that perhaps coupled with my indecision about whether I really want to be allowed to cum or not, tends to mean that I'm often not as hard as I would like during those sessions. Yesterday Harry Haversackers asked if I wasn't a little disappointed that I was allowed to cum, and yes of course a little bit of me would have loved to continue (either with a ruined orgasm or no orgasm at all), but I certainly wouldn't describe myself as 'disappointed' when I was tonguing Mistress R's gorgeous ass and cumming hard, far from it!
Like Mistress R said, we're still pretty new to this and there's plenty of time for her to develop and become meaner about letting me cum, and yes of course I do hope she will become meaner about that and more dominant in other ways too, but only as fast as she's comfortable with. We've already come a lot further a lot faster than I thought we would and we're both loving it, so I see no reason to think that this won't continue indefinitely and that Mistress R won't carry on growing into her new role.
Mistress R is also very pleased that her plan to make me lose weight is working as well, and in fact she has just suggested a walk to help burn off all those yummy Thai Chilli crisps I ate last night, so I'd better get on!

I forgot to add...

The hottest thing Mistress R said to me this morning (and there was plenty to choose from!) was this little gem:

"I know how much you love me having total control of your cock, and we will get there eventually. We are only at the beginning of this..."

Awesome.